Ellen you have every right to have a moan day, heck have several, you deserve them. I have not experienced chemo, but I watched my mom go through it and I know how it kicked our Judy's butt for a while there, as well as others here. It will get better, not overnight but it will get better and you will get through this. You, and your family, are amazing people, I so admire you and the strength you have, I know I could never face this with the strength and dignity you have. As for kids, I can only imagine what a disappointment that is, but it does not mean you have to be without kids and what wonderful parents you will make.

So onward my friend, please Pis* and moan, cry, scream whatever it takes all you want.

Hugs and prayers for your special dad that all will go well

Ellen, how are you today???

Sending bonks and luvs!!!


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Thinking of you too

Kira, Judy, Joan, Karen, Heather, Ellie, Joan, Susan, ~k~, Tomi, miss kitty, Nancy, Dianne & Cat.... I want to tell you how much I appreciate your kind messages last night, I was showing Stevie with tears streaming down my face. I want you to know that you made me feel so much better last night.

Dad is in surgery just now and he will be for the next few hours, I didn't really sleep well last night. It is a big operation but it needs to be done...all our positive thoughts will go to getting him through it. I feel less moany today, you guys really cheered me up last night. I took a bath and then did some research on different treatments. I normally ban myself from looking at cancer stuff online but last night I wanted to. I came accross CyberKnife and Cryoablation which looked interesting, will be asking my oncologist about these. I also looked at some forums of women who have exactly the same thing as me, this made me cry...all these women fighting to stay alive. It was great to read that many of them are still here years later and are 'living with cancer'.

Thanks you so much for letting me vent, I think my mom has enough on her plate so I don't like talking to her about my worries...Stevie gets it all, bless him. It helped me so much wrtitng this last night, I am so glad I met you guys, you are such an amazing bunch of great ladies. XxX

ps, Kira, that Baby is crazy big, so cute.

Sweet Ellen, I have your dear Dad in my heart and prayers and am visioning him in a protective bubble of love....

Wed Wed said he will come and knock all of your makeup off the counter if it will make you laugh like it does him's Mommy...

We are all here for you, and for Steve.. he should certainly post here if he wants... he is a part of our furrrmaily!!!!!

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We love you

I love you guys too.