Winston isn't eating much .. he won't eat his raw food with the medicine for his kidneys tho I got at least 3/4 of the treatment in him. He won't eat it with anything that I've tried even gerber baby food.. In fact he's just not eating hardly anything again.

I tried to give him fluids this morning and he got all panicky and had trouble breathing. And I was really very calm and just stroking him tho when I tented his skin he freaked and got very restless. I want to try again tho have been waiting for him to be comfortable and knocked out so he'd not resist~ I don't think that's going to happen.

I'm going to call the Vet and take him back for check up re his kidneys tho I'm beginning to feel like I have to accept that my little guy may not do a whole lot better. Or I guess it's going to be like this with waxing and waning re his appetite and such.

I hate to say this tho after trying to give him fluids this morning and his restlessness i went and had a good cry again. I could kick myself.. I never gave up when it came to learning my human IV/phlebotomy skills .. I don't want to give up or be a failure with own "baby"~ it just frustrates me to no end.

He must know I'm writing about him as he just sat bolt upright from lying around sleeping in his little bed and now he's on the move.. where to .. bathroom/liitter box, living room water, kitchen food ... hmmm better go see~

Winston is always in my prayers. I hope he has lots of time left with you, but if not, he has been so blessed to have found you. Just by the way you talk about him, you can tell how much you adore him and how he adores you.

Take care of yourself as well. Keep us updated

sending prayers, crying is good for the heart and soul. I know I would cry to, never feel sorry for that. I wish I could say all will go well. but it is hard to tell with the kidneys, just know you have tried everyone thing and gone the extra mile and Winston knows you are trying to help him and how much you love him. Hugs and prayers for you both

Winston looked at me just like that photo of Kira's with Chunkys eyes all round and popped out! He was like "Momma~ what you twying to do to me?!" Then he squiggled all over and got up and "boogied"~ yes for that he had steam!!!

thanks for the kind thoughts~ Chunk actually reminds me quite a bit of Winston when he was younger tongue hanging out color and all~ Winnie as a bit more of a button nose tho flat as can be and torqued w/teenytiny nares.. such an absolute doll he is tho!

Chunk is a crazy man. Sometimes he just gets in these moods. We have had a fairly calm week, minus the tackling/wrestling match last night

Give Mr. Winston a big ole hug from Chunkers

We are thinking of you and Winstson. He is at that stage where he may be doing well and then not so good. Dakks is a lot like that when he has his issues.
. Hugs to both of you. He may surprise you.

I know a good hard cry is something that they bring out in us.

I understand the tears , had a few of them myself lately, lots in the past an I know the time will come when I'll have lots more. I am the absolute pitts at accepting things like this. I hope he turns around has lots of good days still.

Hugs and prayers

Now I'm in serious denial.. I start to cry even when thinking anything will happen.. I just sit down next to Winston on the sofa where I've tried to give him fluids and stroke his back and he looks at me all wide eyed, gets up and boogies~ he is not wanting to let me do this! If I try to keep him there he panics! I have never been good at doing things my cats let me know they didn't want such as bathing, clipping Winston's hind nails, brushing out mats in groin, armpits and such. Boy if I was that way with human patients no one would have even gotten bathed, shots, meds, nada.. I'm not even like that with myself!

I'm a pushover for these cats~ crap!

Gabby Kitty hated the kidney foods and was loosing more weight. At some point we (me and the vet) decided it was more important to just get food in her and We went back to fancy feast for her last few months. she loved it and i knew it was pretty much kitty hospice at that point. also, I believe there is some debate on if that special low protien diet actually helps them.

oh yeah. she loved the fancy feast fish flavors so much i could mix her phosphorous binder in with it.

Did you give you Gabby kitty fluids by any chance?